Tuesday: Rio

Went to watch Rio just now, with the siblings. Overall, it was quite nice, though I'd rather not watch it in 3D. Rather expensive.

I saw the trailer for Transformers. Scary but impressive. I wonder if I'll be able to watch it.

Rio was funny. There were a few sexual connotations as well, haha.

Well, not really 'haha'. It just sounded like a natural thing to put after a statement like that. I don't really feel good now. But at least I started my cramming session today.

Maybe I should start with Chemistry, instead of Biology. Or just Biology, Chapter Eleven, the one teacher will be testing us on soon for a small test, and THEN Chemistry (Organic) because Chem teacher quizzes us in class. I act like I don't give a damn whether or not I can answer, and honestly I think I don't really care, but it'd be nice to shock his eyeballs out when the slow one aka me can throw out equations like nobody's business.

Be happy, Carmelia. Even when you feel as though half your classmates seem to carry burdens. Each of us have our own problems. Those who seem carefree enough, aren't close enough to me for me to be sure. This one might feel bad about the friendly bullying she receives. That one might have relationship problems. Another one has too much to do.

But I don't know. I want to find out, to spend time, to talk. Maybe I can't help all of them, but how about just one? It'll take a lot of time & effort to be sincere. Maybe that's why I don't dare to ask, because I want to be able to follow-up. And even when I ask, they wouldn't tell me, because... I'm just asking. Maybe I don't seem sincere enough.

I don't dare to because I have problems of my own. This stupid weight-loss thing, & studies & self-esteem that inflates & deflates too fast, too much.

But who knows? Maybe helping someone else out might help me forget, or even solve, my issues.

Signed, Carmelia.

Feeling, stoic.
Thinking, I dislike the number one. But it keeps us sane, perhaps.