Thursday, March 24, 2011

Thursday; Beach Evening, Nana & Ru

Highlights: Nana & Ashrul came over!

Well, at least they were supposed to. Came home from KFC to find Jerry left the house, & I was so irritated that I didn't think properly to check the inside cabinet for the key. I found out later that they WERE there, but by then we'd left for the beaches.

I'd planned a relaxing evening at home, watching movies & chatting. But Nana & Ash were eager to seek out Keele Chin & head to the beach, & I didn't mind going out & leaving the house, so off we went!

A lot more happened today. All the little things that's defining who I'm going to be years from now on. Things like teachers paying me attention, Ivy telling me that her elder sister said I'm pretty, Doraemon talking with me about losing weight, me stuffing my face with bread & rice & veggies & egg & coffee & kuih after kuih after kuih.

I just don't care, recently. I could barely concentrate during Math S, which came before recess, because I'd felt so hungry. Even though I had coffee & a few pieces of bread.

We'd learnt about arenes & the nomenclature of alkenes today. Cikgu Goh shared with us about how Gary, from Horsey & Banana's batch of Sixth Formers, improved, from 20, to 50% for the final school examinations, to a beautiful, round A for STPM Chemistry. All because he became very interested in Organic Chemistry, as opposed to Physical Chemistry. According to Cikgu Goh, Organic Chem is very important. You master Organic Chem, you will do well for Chemistry.

Which is a good, good thing, because I'm actually starting out well for Organic Chemistry. & I think the teacher thinks so too.

Math, though, is a sad story. An A for Math S is within reach, as long as I do my revision, but for Math T, it's like learning Defence Against the Dark Arts for a year, & getting thrown into the Forbidden Forest. You know your theory, you practiced- But you will still not know what's going to come at you, & chances are you're not going to know what that thing you see in front of you is.

I'm thinking of spending at least thirty minutes everyday just typing about how my day went. It's mainly for Nigel, so he can read & find out how my day really went when he wants to, instead of the limited expressions I give him through texting. Also, maybe it will help me organize my thoughts, so that I won't get attacked by confusion when things don't go well. And it'll be interesting to look back, one day, on how I spent 2011. One of the most difficult years of my short life.

Signed, Carmelia.

Feeling, tired but awake.
Thinking, I wish I could help you heal & be happy, happy, happy again, girl.

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